I wanted to talk about making choices in life - choices that are under some sort of influence and that we must accept as a part of our nature. The main character decides not to get up from bed because 'being afraid of deception', she prefers to live her life in her mind. But being in bed is a choice in itself. It is not bad or good, it is just a choice. I wanted to point out that living in a mental state is not necessarily a form of escape. In this case, it is the character personal way of approaching existence.